As I correct my posture, noticing I’ve been slouching for the past half hour placing stress upon my neck, I slowly start to realize my lack of concentration is directly related to an over awareness of my surroundings. It’s a sense that I can’t turn off, as if a natural ability to pay attention to everything around me except for what I’m trying to focus on. It’s frustrating to really want to excel in every aspect of my life but having a disorder weighing you down. I have been offered to go onto attention deficit medication in the past and have declined. I have an extraordinary imagination that will never be suppressed by meds. I refuse to do that to my creativity or my future. I’ve seen one to many of my friends be prescribed to Ritalin, Metadate, Concerta, Dexedrine ... the list goes on, and be converted from lively personable people to mindless androids of themselves, going about their day in a kind of haze. Like the look a really hungover person has right after awaking from a deep slumber. I don't want that to be my life. I want to live an extraordinary life full of extraordinary things and I wont let any attention medications jeopardize that.